one must imagine me happy

What Do I Want?

I’ve been surviving for so long. No, not living. Surviving. I know what I don’t want in my life but I don’t think I’ve truly thought about what I actually want.

After the deaths. After the abyss that is GAD and MDD. After the years of floundering about in a benzo haze when I had to.

What do I actually want now that survival seems constant?

A larger question I need to think about.